I can blog via my phone!? Freakin. Awesome.

What I learned this weekend.. Ha.

"Hey, hey! What a wonderful kind of day. Where you can learn to work and play, and get along with each other. Hey!"

Whoever can name where that is from first, wins brownie points.

It's so true about summer though (: it's a wonderful kind of day. So we might as well live.it.up. That's what I've been trying to do lately (: Woot! Monday and Tuesday I worked.

But then Wednesday I went to the Draper temple with Ali, Mitch and Brady. That was nice. The font in that temple is really cool. We also went and saw some HUGE houses up in Draper. Holy cow, some where about 3x the size of mine. Whyyyy!??! After that Sloan and I had a lazy day. (: I love lazy days. We sat in her room and talked, went to Mcdonalds and got large drinks. Mmm. Can you guess what I got? Lol. Then we went back to her room and watched hilarious videos on youtube. Go look up 1 800 contacts commercial "special eyes". FAVORITE COMMERCIAL EVER. Bahahahaha. And played Catch Phrase, which we are pretty good at when I'm not being a complete idiot. Ha.

Thhhurssssday: I can't remember.. OH!!! Uhmm. Sloan and I cleaned my bathroom!! Holy. Crap. These are before and after pictures (: Woooo baby. It was 100 TIMES WORSE THAT IT LOOKS. Like, you have no idea. The floorboards, the shower, behind the mirror, YIKES. Anyways, that was terrible. But awesome.




It took 3.5 hours. Craziness. We also took a Walmart break in the middle of it, for paper towels, deoterant, and yes, Dr Pepper :D Thennnn. We went to her house. Ate chips and salsa, which, I'll have you know, I am about to eat again for dinner. Yuuuuum. I'm obsessed with chips and salsa lately. THEN. WE. WENT. AND. SAW. INCEPTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOO!!! It was so good and SO FREAKIN CRAZY. We went with Ali Mike Brogan Alex and us :) Soooo cool. Sorry. I am bugging myself with all this craaaazy typing and TALKING.

I'm done now.

Then afterwards me, Mike, and Sloan went to Iggy's and roasted marshmellows, then walked across the street to Seven 11, and yes, I got Dr Pepper. This addiction is SERIOUSLY starting to cost. Siiiigh. Unfortunate.

Friday: Went camping with the family. Wasted in volleyball. I love it. Nothing much after that.
Today: Saturday: Uhhhm. Slept till 1... Haha, Well I woke up at 8. Got home at 11. Slept till 1. Then woke up, chatted with Ali, Went to lunch with Sloan, LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE in my room. Haha. So hyper. So funny. Then I bought new shoes. I. NEED. TO. STOP. SPENDING. MONEY. Dang it. Someone needs to budget my paycheck.

So. Yeah. If you read this whole thing, I'm pretty impressed. You probably got really really bored. This thing is becoming like a journal. Woot. Oh well.
K. Gonna go eat food (:

What I've learned this weekend:
You can find best friends in the most obvious places.
Not working is thee best.
Never put your tent by a tree infested with earwigs.

Keep on living life to the fullest.
All my love.
Laur.

Mood Update

I am in SUCH A GOOD MOOD. Idk why (:
Maybe it is the fact that I have the rest of the week off work!?! Certainly could be (: things are looking up!

Sorry for all the stupid, short blogs lately.

Love. Laur.

Huh.

It's 3:20 AM.
My allergies are terrible.
This chair won't stop squeaking.
I'm tired, but not sleepy.
And I'm in a terrible mood. [Obviously carried over from yesterday.]

Why.am.i.even.up?

good night wonderful bloggers. or good morning. depending on how you see it.

love to all.

i hate girls.

that's all.

A day in bed is what I need.

Have you ever just been upset for no good reason? Sad, for no good reason? Idk why. But that's what I am. Sad. Whyyy..?
I don't even know what to write about! I feel like I wanna pour my soul out and get it all out there.. But I dunno where to begin.

I'm just sitting here, tapping my acrylic nails on the keys, smelling homemade peanut butter cookies, and wondering what in the world I have to be upset about. What DO I have to be upset about?

My current schedule: I'm LUCKY and blessed to have a job.
My current relationship status: I can't trust anyone anymore anyways [that was a lot of any's] and I'm in high school, it shouldn't matter.
My brother and Logan being gone: They're where they are supposed to be.
My friends leaving for college: We all have to say goodbye sometime..

If yall have been keeping up with zee blog, you'll know I haven't been able to cry for the past two months. Not a drop. And it's been KILLING me. On Friday I went over to my aunt's house and she gave me the most meaningful present I have ever received. The tears started to FLOW.

Ever since then, it has been EMOTIONAL Laura. I'm having such a hard time getting used to it. Haha. Romantic stories told by Sloan over lunch: tears. The mention of my guy friends all being on LDS missions this time next year: tears. Telling Sloan she is one of my best friends: tears. Writing an email to my brother: tears. Bike ride: tears. Ipod: tears.

WHAT IS THIS NEW THING CALLED TEARS?!?!
It's super weird. I don't know if I like it or not.
Some would call it PMS. I promise, it isn't.

I guess I'm just struggling with change? With heartbreak? With feeling alone even though I KNOW I have people on all sides of me.

I need one of my best friends. Come lay in my bed with me all day. Listen to music. Eat food. Bring me a Seventeen magazine. Wallow with me. Stay in sweat pants. No makeup. Siiiigh. :( That is what I need. If my brother was here, he would. Minus the Seventeen magazine part. Hah.

I think I just need a break. A day off from the world. Not even leaving my room. Hm. Maybe I will.. Except I work tomorrow and the next day. Maybe Wednesday will be my lazy day.
K. I'll stop typing now.

Love to you guys. Thank you always for reading.
Laur.

have you

ever wanted to tell someone something but couldn't?

yeah.

me too.

Addict.

Addiction. Click that link! This dance is incredible. And definitely portrays what I want to blog about right now; Saying goodbye and addiction. They kinda go hand in hand.

How do you know when to say goodbye?

A few weeks ago, I said goodbye to one of my best friends. He knew me better than a lot of people in this world know me. I keep asking myself why I said goodbye.

I needed to. To grow as a person. To learn how to become happy on my own. To separate myself from the lies. To get out of a dramatic place; A place of deceit. A never ending cycle of being lost.

When someone you love hurts you, it kills. It truly does. So does saying goodbye mean I don't forgive? Of course not. I need to take care of myself, and that is how I'm doing it. I separate myself, I take care of myself and get my head on straight.

I'm assuming that when you are reading this, you are thinking of someone in your own life. Who is either hurting you physically, emotionally, mentally. Saying goodbye doesn't mean you don't love them, you can still love them. But take some space for yourself. Take care of who you are.

Whether it's a bad habit, a hurtful person, drugs, whatever; Better yourself. Become the person you want and get rid of whatever it is keeping you down. Unaddict yourself.

Become the person you have always wanted.
Saying goodbye is hard. But once you get past the hard part, it's like a breath of fresh air.
Sigh.
This has been a hard blog to write. Part of me feels like highlighting it all, and pressing back space.
But no.
I am gonna press 'publish post'.
Sigh.

My love to you all. Laura.

Wanting.

This ring. Wow. Beautiful. Marriage? Hmm. In a few years ;) Ha.


The hat. Who wouldn't want a floppy sun hat?




Have you ever seen more of a necklace that has Laura in it? No. Nor have I.


Just the one of her books that I've read. I want her collection. I want them all.



Holy.


Cute eh?




You know what I'm wanting MOST?!
MORE BLOG FOLLOWERS (: So click the button at the top and follow me on this wonderous journey

Laur.

Music. Life. Whatever.

Click. Here. Now.
Seriously. I bought The Maine's new album yesterday. I'm obsessed. Listening to it right now actually. Aaaaamazing.
Also, yesterday my lovely Asian friend, Ali, and I went through her itunes and burnt three CDs of awesome music. Anberlin, We Shot The Moon, Sherwood, The Fold, Cartel, All Time Low, and much other good stuff.

You guys, this is some good hearins. Check them out!

I love the smell of Barnes and Noble. [If you don't know what that is, I feel sorry for you. It's a bookstore.]
It smells like books and air conditioning. I love just sitting in there and breathing deeply. I love the quiet feeling of it, but at the same time you don't have to whisper. I went there yesterday and read Seventeen magazine.
Seventeen Magazine: Definitely my guilty pleasure. I'm obsessed, but it's embarrassing. Ha.

Anyways. New music, love it :) Good smells, love it.

Got my nails done yesterday. I walk in: The smell, I hate that smell. Four ladies getting pedicures, but me and Al were walk ins. So I figured it was going to be a long wait. Two men come out of no where and start doing our nails!! What the? How many Asians are there? Ha. Okay. Cool. Me and Al start watching 'Days of our Lives' because there isn't really anything else holding our attention. That show is so dramatic and funny. Hahaha. Weird that people can watch that with a straight face.

Yeah. It was a good adventure.
Life is an adventure. Live it.
Dream it up.

Oo. For my next blog I have a good idea about letting go of people you need to in life.
I'll keep you posted.
Laura.

I realize.

I realize that if you were to read the post below this as my most recent post you would think I'm the most boring person ever. Keep going. (: It gets better.

Today I had 105 oz. of Dr. Pepper.

That's about the only noteworthy accomplishment.. Ha.
I worked woot.
Hung out with my girls: Elise and Sloan. And also the famous and cool Brogan. That kid is a serious riot. Lol.
I LOVE THESE PEOPLE.

Yeah. Basically I really chill and boring day.
There is a kink in my neck and it hurts.

Oh. And tomorrow me and my favorite Asian friend Ali are going to go to Salt Lake and buy 89 cent hamburgers and hand them out to homeless people.
Weird? I know.
Nice? Trying to be (:

Loves. Laur.

What my day consisted of..

Dance Forever: Played at least 15 times.
Money spent: Four dollars. (Shorts for work.)
People I talked to on the phone: Three.
People I talked to face to face: Twelve. [Took a sec to figure that out.]
Inside you: Played at least 15 times.
Today was a laaaaaaaaaazy day. :) Loved it though.




Lol. Don't you love summer?
All my love to all you bloggers.
Laura.

Love this song? I think so.

This is the awesome photo shoot I was blogging about earlier this week. There are a million more, but here are some of my favorites (: Thanks again to the wonderful Miss Elise.



(Above) This is my backpack for next year. Yes, I'm going to be a senior. :)

WHY

can't I cry?!?!?!?!?! Is it REALLY that hard??
Ugh.

Have any of you seen The Holiday? It's adorable. It has Cameron Diaz in it. And she can't cry.

There are so many things I want to cry about, but for the life of me, I can't cry.

Howwww commmmme?

Growing Up.

I finally have something to write a decent blog about.

Growing up.

Cliche? Maybe. Today I sat in my grandparents living room with my parents and my uncle, and my grandmother. I am very used to adult conversations, as I don't have many cousins my age who are usually just hanging around. So I sit, and listen to their conversations, rarely commenting, I feel like my level of growing up is not at the commenting point yet. Today it was all about my crazy great uncle. He is literally, certifiably crazy. So is my mom's cousin, we'll call her 'H'. My poor great grandpa raised her along with my great grandma, until she died. H is grown up now with two kids of her own. But messed.up. It's sad to see. Drugs, nonsense like that. She has honestly never grown up. She isn't responsible for herself or for her family for that matter. I feel bad for her, but she has made so many decisions wrong.

For awhile, she turned her life around. But she went back to her other ways. Her poor children.. They didn't ask to be born into a life where there was heartbreak and sorrow and barely any window of opportunity for them. They didn't ask for that. Why do they have to get it then?

Then there's my great uncle. We'll call him J. I do not know what is going on in his head. Ever. He goes to Nicaragua once in a while and marries someone random.. Seriously. He can't even speak their language! And yet he marries them. What possesses him to do this? Not a clue. His last wife fell down the stairs and died. He was in the States. She was over there. Are you shaking your head at the situation too?
Anyways, she died. So he went over there a few months ago and was this close to getting remarried. But then his future mother in law to be (?!?!) started stealing everything from him and yada yada yada, future marriage TERMINATED. Ha. This whole thing kills me. It's pretty funny when you think about it.

NOW. He is planning on marrying the niece of his late wife. His late wife was MUCH younger than him to begin with. Uhm. Her niece??

ANYWAYS. This isn't the point I'm trying to make with this blog. Their conversation got me thinking, 'Wow. Life just gets weirder and harder as you get older.'

Two years ago from this last Thursday, my very dear and sweet uncle on my dad's side passed away. He died of a cancerous brain tumor. He was one of the funniest, coolest, brightest, happiest people I know. I miss him so much. I got on my family's website and there was a discussion going about that date, July 15th. It's funny how certain dates have certain feeling and emotions that are supposed to go with them.. But when all is said and done, they are exactly like any other day, he still is gone. My Aunt Step (his wife) is one of the funnest people. I love her so much. They had five boys together, all of which I love so much.

Life is hard. It really is. There is SO much more going on in this world that as a kid, you just don't realize. Some parts of me want to get past this world and go someplace that there isn't going to be drama, deceit, or lies. And the other part of me wants to go back to being naive, where all that really mattered was the flat tire on my bike, which flavor of Popsicle I got, and when the next time Pokemon was going to be on.

But then I realized something.
I NEED TO BE HAPPY WHERE I'M AT IN MY LIFE.

People come, people go, people hurt you, people lie to you, people make the most of second chances, people you love get hurt, people walk away.

But people are just people, and sometimes it doesn't work out.

We just gotta remember: Everything happens for a reason.
It's all in the plan.

My love to all. Laura.

my ankles hurt.

sorry if this has turned into a complaining blog. i try not to make it one.
last night i came up with a list in my head of things NO ONE knows about me.
i only came up with two. Hah.
My life is such a closed book. ;)

i'm gonna go read Logan's letter.... WOOT. and planning on some serious cleaning tomorrow.

lots of love. Laur

P.S. K. I know i haven't had a decent blog on here in a while. i'll whip one up soon enough.

Things are breaking :(

My computer has been screwed up all day... BAH. My mom would be pissed if she knew I was using it right now, because we 'don't have protection'. But we do, she just doesn't know it. Annnnd, my phone is falling apart and my two year contract ends next month. Help.

Today I bought some flowers and planted them. They're mine. I still need to name them. (: I also did.. A whole lot of nothing. Watched the game with my dad. The experience itself was great. Peanuts and Twizzlers. :) Spending time with the pop.

BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT. Alas. Rockies lost. 3 to 2. :( Darn. Lol. Oh well.
Then I went on a bike ride... And thought, listened to my ipod, went through some sprinklers. Every single silver Honda made me wonder, but I tried not to overthink it.

SIGH. I miss being a kid when life was simple. Yeah?

Great Day.

Just a great, great day. Yeah... I'm still hanging in there. I'm still hurt/hurting A LOT. But it was just such a good day I have to tell yall about it. :)

Woke up.
Scriptures.
Went back to sleep.
Woke up again.
Did my chores.
Went to Ali's house.
Talked and talked and talked. About boys, life, auras. I want an aura reader to read me.
Jammed to music in her bathroom.
Did my makeup.
Went to Costco for samples and more goodies.
Walmart run for Dr Pepper.
Watched 'The Hills'. Lol. Funny show.
Left Ali's house.
Home.
Watched a new 'Hannah Montana' episode with my sister. HAH.
Went to Elise's.
Did my hair.
Drove to North Salt Lake.
COOLEST FREAKING PHOTO SHOOT I'VE EVER DONE. She is amazing. Just saying. In an awesome abandoned house. Just so cool. Did a dance photo shoot too. I'll post some asap.
Went to Elise's house.
Looked at pictures.
She ate pizza.
Went home.
'Talked' with my parents. Lol. I guessed what they were going to say, I set them straight. Everything ended well.
Ate some fish with my dad, littlest sis, and Elise.
Went to Subzero. Got rice milk ice cream. Dr Pepper flavored. It was NASTY. Never again. Especially not for four dollars.
Sat and ate and talked outside. Just me and Elise still. Laughed. CRAZYness. Really. We are so crazy together.
Went into smoochies to... do... something.. Lol.
Drove to Sam's house screaming 'WOOT TO LIFE' out the window.
Played PIG and basketball at Sam's with Sloan and Erik and Elise, and of course, Sam.
Real fun.
Drove home.
Saw a dead cat.
Home.
Blogging.
Tada. Here I am.

It was just such a FUN FILLED SUMMER day. Ah. I loved it.
Annnnnnd. I don't have to work tomorrow again!! Three days off in a row? Best thing that has happened in a long time. Long, long time.

Yesterday, I said goodbye to a dear, very close friend to me. But I can't be hooked on that addiction anymore. It was bringing me NOTHING but unhappiness. Truly. I know if someone loves you, they'll let you go. It's hard... But everything happens for a reason. I'm sure there are better things in store. Like one of my FAVORITE quotes from Marilyn Monroe:

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

SO TRUE. Right? I will keep this quote in my heart the next couple months.

Anyways. What a fabulous day. My new word of the day: PREMIUM. Hahahaha. I love you Leash.

I needed today. Exciting things coming up. Rockies vs. Reds tomorrow. Watching it with my dad.. His team, and my team. SO SCARED. Ah. I love my dad.
Then Saturday going for a Dr. Pepper run with my wondrous auntie. :)
The things in store are pretty darn exciting.

All my love, Laur.

P.S. I'm worried about myself. I have zero appetite today. I ate 20 pringles and half a piece of fish.. Uh dear.

Y. E. S.

rewind button please. or fast forward. preferably the second choice.

anywhere but here.

2:10 PM

That's when I woke up this morning.. In the afternoon.
I only sleep THAT long, when I'm super depressed and low. My body freaks out and shuts down. Thanks for wasting my Monday, body.

I miss how everything used to be.
Part of me wants to start over.
Part of me wants to run away.
How am I supposed to make anyone else happy when I'm not even happy?
I just want to shout at myself IT'S NOT EVEN THAT BIG OF A DEAL, DANG IT. STOP MAKING IT A BIG DEAL.

It's a big deal to me... It's not fair. This already happened once. I swear I learned my lesson the first time. Why'd I have to learn it again???
All I'm learning is not to trust people.

Well. Definitely learned my lesson this time.
It's harder than I thought.

Gotta work in a few hours..
Love, Laur.

'My Best Friend's Wedding'

Ever seen it? If not, go see it. Now. It's an older one. But I love it.



Best friend vs. the bride.

Ah. It is just such a good movie. It has Cameron Diaz in it, of course, my favorite actress.
Love love love.
Too cute.

Me and my bad self.

Obsessed?

Dr. Pepper
My paycheck
Seventeen Magazine
So You Think You Can Dance
Texting
Goo Goo Dolls
Dancing
My bed in the morning
Facebook
My blog
Quotes
Hippos
The South
moderndaylovetale.blogspot.com
Medium rare meat
Pictures of myself
Biting my nails
Redheads
Makeup
Baboons
Jewelery with meanings
Objects with meanings
My ipod
Curly hair
The Killers
Pirouettes in the kitchen
Vintage/Indie style clothing
Brushing my teeth
Changing up my hair
92.5 FM
Writing about myself and who I am

worst. week. ever.

dont make me capitalize things. k? not in the mood.
wow. worked 30 hours this week. my legs kill, i smell like subway. ugh.

lost one of my best friends. lost potential of something i really wanted badly. something so bad i could practically reach out and grab it. i KNEW she was going to have an ulterior motive. wahla. you are super. i miss people being who i thought they were. lame. i hate when the one person you thought would be there forever and ever, isn't.

the more i grow up, the more i realize that even though family are the people who can make me go crazy, they're the people who love me the most. we're forever. so eat it, temporary people.

idk what to do. i've forgiven. but second chances? don't really believe in them anymore.. hmmm. i never know when second chances applicable!

when is ANYTHING applicable??? i wish there was a handbook for when to say and do the right things.. guess that'd be prayer. huh.

gunnight. me and my dr pepper are going to watch tv.

love laura

My friend gave me some advice today: Never date someone who wears wife beaters. I've learned this two times over. TRUTH.

Today, I heard someone who actually said they READ my blog. I feel so awesome.

NO WORK TOMORRRRRROW :D

It's 12:12.... Should I make a wish? Nah. Nothing to wish for.

You guys. This is a really pointless blog post. I am just at a loss for words....

Feels like half my world ended tonight, and at the same... I am having a hard time caring. Why? Has it just not hit me yet??? :/ Idk.

My mom asked me what I'm doing. I said blogging. She asked what the point is.

I DON'T KNOW DANG IT.

Hah. G'night. Laura.

Ah Freak.

Can't breathe. Oh shoot. Breathe, breathe, breathe. Sip the Dr Pepper darlin. It's going to be okay. Right? Yes. It is... Just be mature about this Laur. Chill.

I am breathing. OKAY!??!?!! Whew...

Me feet hurt.

And my back. And my thumb. I smashed it in a coin dispenser today. Ouchie.

Ah... This decision is EATING me. So many pros. So many cons... It's stressful and hectic. I think about it every second. Tic tok. Tic tok. I hate decisions.

Guess what my schedule is for this week.

Monday: 5 to Close
Tuesday: 5 to Close
Wednesday: 5 to Close
Thursday: 5 to Close
Friday: OFFFFFFFF
Saturday: 5 to Close

I don't think my back and my feet are going to feel any better any time soon...

Laura.

Hey there.

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Have you ever typed that word over and over again? It is surprisingly WAY fun.

Dishes at midnight

My family can drive me INSANE sometimes. A lot of the time. Especially without my brother here to calm me down.
But when all is said and done, I love them. So much.
I ate way too much watermelon today. --Now I gotta pee.
The Rockies lost their game today; I hate you Giants.
I went swimming and did a flip off the high dive. H yeah.
I went and saw 'Clash of the Titans'. I saw the first 20 minutes and fell asleep for the rest. It was a good nap.
So much good food today.
Summer is going full blast.
Letter from Logan today!!! Much needed.

Those are a few of the things that went through my life on July 3rd.

All my love.

Siiiiiiiiiigh.

The red is gone. It upsets me greatly. The blonde is gone too. :( One of the streaks of hair is still a little red, but not enough to tell. I'm sad to say I look almost, well, average. Ugh. Big, long discussion with my parents tonight. Basically the only reason I dyed it back is for my two little sisters and my little cousins. I want them to know following the prophet is important.

BAH!!!! THE STUBBORN SIDE OF ME IS WAITING TO BURST OUT!!!!!

Sorry, anyways. Sigh. My main reason for wanting to keep it: I want people to know it's what is on the INSIDE that counts. It doesn't matter what is on my head. It's WHO I am and the decisions I make. I am so sick of JUDGMENTAL people. One thing I don't like about living in Utah. Hate actually. People see a streak of red in my hair and they think 'Oh, she's going off the deep end.' Ridiculous. I'm sure that's what my parents feared too. I want people to know I can have a strong testimony and look different too. It's terrible that people think differently of others because of how they look. I don't want people to think I'm like that. If they see the streak of red in my hair, and SEE the way I act, keeping the commandments, going to church.... They'll know that I know it's true.

So sick of the judgments people make on other people. I want them to know I'm not like that.. But now all my individuality is taken away from me.

Did I explain every BIT of this to my parents?
Yes.
Did they listen?
They heard what they wanted to hear.

I saw '500 days of Summer' for the first time tonight. It was good. If you haven't seen it, go see it. It was different.

Siiiiiiigh. Grrrrr. Anger.

Laur.

AAAAAAAAHAHAHA. Sorry, I'm a spaz.

Do you ever just get the giggles inside of you? And you feel like you are going to burst? For no good reason!? That is how I feel right now. Haha, I feel like I need to go do a crazy dance and run a mile.. Too much energy inside, just waiting to burst out.

I have the weekend off work. And I'm thrilled. Fourth of July weekend. Should be interesting. :) I love fireworks. Ah. These festivities make me miss Logan. We did all of this stuff together last year! And he is miles and miles away. Oh well, I'll just spend it with good friends. Mmm. I love July.

My sisters have been gone for the past two days. Not going to lie. It's been pretty nice and quiet around here. I feel like an only child. My brother in Brazil, the girls in Spanish Fork. Still, I'm ready for us all to be back together again.

Watched 'The Notebook' last night. Still in love with that movie as much as I was the first time I saw it. I don't even remember the first time I saw it. Hah.

The streaks in my hair have to be gone by Sunday.... :( Hmm. So what if I don't?!?!
We'll see I guess..

Have you ever just become really tired of your name? I hate being called: Laura, Laur, Lu, Lem, anything. Right now I am sick of being Laura. I would like to be someone else. Can people start calling me Grace or something? I mean, I like myself. The title is bugging though.

I want to go to New York. So badly.

All my love, Me.

Regret

I can't stand people not liking me.. But I truly do deserve it.
I wanna apologize to her. But I'm scared she'd just hate me even more for it. :/

What is better? To apologize and still be hated? Or to just leave it alone?

I don't know.....


Not that she would ever see this: But I'm sorry.. I wish I could go back and change every decision I ever made that hurt you.

Now I just need to master actually doing that..
I wish people actually read this blog. Hah.

I'm a wuss.

Laur.