Salivating

I am salivating for school to be over. Does that even make sense? I dunno... If it doesn't to you, it does to me :P

Really though. Summer is going to be bomb. :) I hope... I shall try and make the most of it. Sometime soon I will write my summer list down here. Either that or in a Facebook note. Yes, I shall do it in a facebook note. But yeah, hope this summer will rock.

On Saturday me and Ali went to Gateway and had a blast :) And she got me the best late birthday present I have ever received :) We went to Forever 21 and I got, a new purse, a new wallet, two new indie head band things, a tank top for over my bikini, and some dorky but awesome sunglasses. :) I love shopppping. And Ali is the best kind of company around. I love her SO much.

She is getting baptized this Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :D :D :D I am so proud of the person she is.

Exciting things coming up. Just need to get tomorrow [my last real day of school out of the way. Look out summer :) Here I come.

...I also might be becoming a supervisor at work.. More hours.. Meh. Oh well :) More money.
Also getting a car soon. Need to find one for a reasonable price!!

Love always, Laura Emily Morrow.

Cancer. And Life.

So I watched 'My Sister's Keeper' for the first time tonight... It kinda left me feeling like I want to throw up. And feeling hopeless. I think in the end it was meant to be inspirational... But it just left me wanting to cry. Although it is very rare that tears leave my eyes, unless I am caught off guard. So instead, I feel the turning of my stomach.

As I sit her and stare at the random assortment of things on my computer desk [my mother's ipod, a red pen, a pencil, a crumpled up napkin, some cds], and I rest my hands on the keyboard, waiting for the words to come flowing out of them, ever so often hitting the backspace button... I think..

I think that maybe my life should be handed over to someone who is more deserving of it. People die from cancer every day. It took my uncle, it took my grandma, it took Brian, it took so many people.. It fought my aunt, and it's fighting my little Koda. It is never going to stop fighting. And each of them did it/are doing it with a smile on their face.

I'm not worthy of the life I live. I'm not trying hard enough. I complain, I spend too much money, I lose my temper too often, I give into my own pleasures way too much. --Most people would take this, and say "From now on, I'll live like I'm dying. I'm going to do my best."
.... What if this is my best? And what if I STILL don't feel good enough.

Cancer sucks.
My thoughts, Laura.

Allllllllrighty.

Ventation, here I come.. Pretty positive ventation isn't a word.

So I've been without my phone for three days. My choice. WEIRD, I know. But I couldn't handle people's CRAP anymore. So many people texting me. So much crap. I didn't need it.
...Started getting depressed.
...Started getting stressed.
...Started feeling sick to my stomach.
...Started wanting to make myself throw up.
...Started feeling like a horrible person.
GOOD BYE PHONE :) Not forever.. Idk, probably till Saturday.
But right now, it's NICE not having it with me. Much less drama that way..

....So. Like I said in my last post, I've been trying to fly away.. Sorta working. I guess. People keep breaking my wings though. Just LET ME FLY. Seriously... I've been feeling.. Lonely. But I really do love the people in my life. And without my phone, I've been getting closer to my family :) Especially my sisters. Awe, they so cute. I love em.

Anyways. Bleh. I still smell like Subway. Probably because I'm still in my Subway clothes. But I needed "someone" to vent to. I just wish life would get on with itself, ya know??? I'm so over people's crap. Ha. Smirk smirk smirk. That little girl is so funny... I could laugh at how funny it is. Really. PEOPLE. SEE THE LIGHT.

Meh. That's all.

Maybe.

The name of my blog is right. I am a butterfly.

And right now. . . . I think the best thing for me to do, would be to fly away.
Here I go.

Laur.

17?

Is my birthday :)

love life? I THINK SO. :) hahah wow. life is just good. i couldn't ask for better people in my life :)
Elise, my brrrother Andrew, Devs, Geo, Logan.
My mama, daddy, two best little sisters in the world :D

This is what life is about!! Couldn't ask for better.

XOXOXO.

Allll my love, 17 year old Lu ;)

BACKSTREET'S BACK. ALRIGHT

Backstreet boys concert. June 23. Me and Ali are possibly going :) Also, prom is in two days, more importantly, my BIRTHDAY in two days :)

I can't wait for this summer. baaaaaahahah. exciting upcoming things. woot to life.
love lu.

Schoooooool

Get a grip Laurs. Hahah. Sheesh. I need to get a grip. really, this is bad news. Four F's... Ha. Only two I actually gotta worry about. And AP test is a week from today. TOO MUCH TO DO. Baaaaaah. So newwws. Been working lots.

I know this sounds cheesy, but I LOVE the people I work with. I feel like I can truly be myself around them :) We are all like a huge family. Love my job. Love my co workers. Love making money. Haha.

Got my prom dress today. BEEEEAUTIFUL. But unexpectedly 70 bucks for allterations :/ ohhh well.
I still haven't answered to prom... Haha, it is this weekend. MY BAD. Hahah. Sorry Creager. Prom will be way fun though :) And guess whose birthday is on prommmm. Me. Yes. I will be 17. Woot woot. Holla.

SHOOT. Just remembered I didn't write Logan today :/ crap I feel bad. Bummer. I shall write him tomorrow. I also have the sisterhood journal at the moment, I need to write in that tooo..

SO MUCH TO DO, so little time. :P
Sall good, I'll pull through. I always do.

You guys, I have 6 best friends. And I love them. Really truly. They help me through everything. Bubba has especially lately, we are kindred spirits, I feel like not a lot of people know me like he does.
Anywho, I always feel so much better after blogging. xxxxxxxxxx.

Lots of my love to the outter space where these blogs go, Little Miss Lu lu.