If I Choose

I am going to start laughing more and crying less.
I'm going to stop feeling sorry for myself.
I'm going to start wearing more fun and spunky outfits like I wore today.
(I would post a picture.. But I can't figure it out via iPad. Any tips would be very appreciated!)

I'm going to continue to ride the pink, beach bike. Everywhere I can.
And continue listening to the oh so wonderful voice of Andrew Allen; if you like goodness, I would suggest checking him out.
And Parachute. He Is We. Damato. I Call Fives. Sparks The Rescue.
Greatness of all sorts.
In fact, I want to be listening to music 23 out of 24 hours of the day.

Hang out more with people who matter to me and I matter to them.
And less with people who don't.

Smile more. Why not?

Make more friends and less enemies.
I'm going to stop caring about what I eat.

I've started going to the gym every friday. And I'm going to continue to do it. And feel great.
I'm going to just wear my hair curly every day, let it loose, let it go wild.

More juice.

I went to the farmers market and got henna and had delicious samples.
Went on a blind date last night to a Real soccer game. What a blast.
Went to two concerts this week, both so different and so enjoyable.

I do lead a lovely life.
So what if continual hardships come my way? Nothing I can't handle, yeah?

I am going to stop going out and spending money on food.
Im going to dance in more places, and take chances. And risks.

Goodness. Today is an epiphany sort of day.

Much love, Laura.

room

maybe i don't have room in my life right now.

i've had one true friend lately.
i'm frustrated and tired.
working every day.
going to concerts on thursday and friday.
BEYOND excited.. it'll be much needed.

i love summer.
got a new room/switched with my sister.
my closet is HUGE. :)

got an Ipad 2 for graduation.
amazing.
yes.

i'm going to bed.
that is my stupid update on life.

i've been boring lately.

it's true, i have.
and who in heaven's name is going to want to read a blog post entitled "i've been boring lately."?
not many people.

i've been working working working.
i smell like subway. i was there for 7.5 hours today.

i want it to be august already.
i want to move, and move to cedar city.
i want to find out who my roommate is and plan exciting things together..
.. i hope we get along.

i want to stop stressing about money for college and find out what my fafsa gave me.
please be a lot.

i want to switch rooms to have a bigger room with a bigger closet.
i need that actually..

i obviously want a lot.
but it's all quite simple.

logan, my missionary friend, comes home in a month and 5 days.
today was his birthday.
:) happy birthday dear red head.

i have felt like i only have a few true friends lately..
for those people-- i'm truly grateful.
i love the people who give me support in my life.

i know this is a boring post.
i just don't have much going on in my life except for planning college and WORK.

i am going to trek at the end of june..
i have no idea what possessed me to do that...
ugh. regretting it already.
then family reunion and CAAAAAAAALI in july.
and school in august.
just counting the days. :]

xoxo
Laura.

lucky charms

where to begin this post?

i graduated.
that's cool i guess.

i got my first massage.
it was more awkward than i expected it to be.
the whole naked thing just felt a wee bit strange.
went to celebrate ali's birthday.
happy birthday you 19 year old asian!

right now it's about 1:30 am and I'm eating lucky charms.
i eat all the little graham things first.
that way i can reward myself by eating all the marshmellows at once.
i think it's a pretty great deal.

life is still pretty stressful outside of high school. who knew?
trying to figure out job stuff.. not going so well.
trying to figure out school stuff.. also not going so well.
check engine light in my car is still on..
still waiting on my new phone to arrive.. praying that the warranty covers it.

EVERYTHING IS SORE.

i'm growing tired of keeping everyone's secrets. i just want to blurt them all out.
right here.
right now.

blank told me that blank is still doing blank with blank.
and blank told me that blank has been doing blank behind my back and blank would like to know who told me about blank.
A;ELFAE;LFJ;ALJF;AEIALISFISAFKCZLKFJLKERHERALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*&%$#%$#
honestly.

so i saw "the roommate" this weekend. creep. beyond creep. just plain strange.

starting tomorrow i am putting myself back on a sleeping and eating schedule.
i have gotten majorly out of hand.
today i worked. tomorrow i work. the next day i work.
lovely.
i really actually don't mind my job.
just hate the fact that i have to work sundays.

but life doesn't always work out how you plan. better get used to it..

xo. Laura.