Ready for an adventure...

Life is busy. Dance rehearsals all this week.
Dance concert, Friday and Saturday. Come if you can! It's at Viewmont. :)
AP tests are next week, along with my birthday and prom.
All I can think of that I want for my birthday is shoes.. And I don't need more shoes.
Should I go with gray vans or red toms?
Give me your opinion please.

I'm missing my brother a lot.
I miss hanging out with him and running random errands.

I got pulled over for the first time yesterday.
It was scary.
Didn't even get a warning though, so that was nice.
Just need to remember to stop for 3 seconds at those stop signs. Hah.

Been happier lately. For no reason at all.
It might be because I haven't been at work in a while..
I love most of the people I work with.. If I worked with Linds every night it'd be easier to be happier.
It's just a stressful job.
But I need the money..
After these busy two weeks I'll be back to working.
Blehhh.

This summer Elise and I are going to Cali for our senior trip.
So excited.
Beach every day.
Photoshoots.
Getting tan.
SUN.
Shopping.
Excitement beyond belief.
Booked the hotel today!
Talked about flights..
It's just downright, overwhelmingly, exciting.
I can't think about it too much because then I just go into slacker mode and want to give up on school altogether.
Must remain strong.

I love my friends.
I honestly don't have a lot of close friends that I feel like I can turn to.
But those few people who I trust and love: thank you.
You mean the world to me.

Tomorrow is a new day and the beginning of a new week.

Goals:
Smile. Every day.
Be nice and try and talk to people in my dance class.. I don't fit in with the most of them, but I'll be spending the entire week with them so I might as well try.
Eat a lot healthier. I've been eating junk lately.
Save money.
Wear my retainer every night.
Try something new every day.
Pray every night.

Just be happy. :)

This looks like a depressing picture of me; it's not. Just serious.


xoxo Laura.

Just Talking To Myself

Yes, I wish I had an easier job. I can't stand my job.

But you're lucky to have one.. A lot of people don't.

Yeah, I wish people didn't lie to me; it's like a regular occurrence lately.

It's fine, that's people for you.
"You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself."

I wish people kept their promises,

they don't, so get used to it. No one is perfect.

I wish my bank account was bottomless.

Hey, at least there is something in there, right?

And I have always wished that I could change someone's life. For the good.

And maybe, just maybe, someday you will.

I wish I wasn't so sore.

But that's okay. The muscles are just getting stronger.
You are getting stronger.

via

Just wishing to myself.
Life'll be okay.
I know it will.
Maybe I'm meant for little things.
And maybe I'm meant for huge things..
I am just going to have to wait and see.

I didn't realize until one of my friends started doin it, but I constantly complain.
I complain on my blog.
I complain on facebook.
I complain at work.
I complain at school.
I complain to my family.

LIFE IS HARD. GET OVER IT AND BE HAPPY.

There is never going to be a time for more than a day where everything is absolutely perfect.

So accept it and move on.
Mmkk self?
Mmk.

Love.
I hope you find everything you're looking for..

Here's the deal.

There's probably a lot of people who don't like me or don't respect me.
Go ahead and judge.

That is fine.

Because guess what.
I've come to terms.
And I love myself.
I'm trying my best..

Tonight was a good night.
I have best friends who love me enough to massage my wrists when they're sore.
yes, my wrists.

two dance rehearsals today.
i love the feeling of dancing.
it feels.. completing. helps me pull my life a little bit together.

peace.

meh.

wearing eddie's gray hat and my new runner runner t shirt today.
dunno why, but i love this outfit.
i look like a dude; that is fine with me.

i'm really done with work.
i'm just not a fan of my job.
i am a fan of money, however. unfortunate combo.

6 am dance rehearsal today mixed with me not getting off work till 11:30 last night..?
tired as all get out.

need to finish my online class today.
badly.
lots to do, not a lot of motivation.

"things change. and people leave. and life doesn't stop for anyone."
i cried myself to sleep last night; ridiculous.
i need to buck up.
i'm ready to go under the covers, never come back.

sigh. i'll get through this. Just an off day..

sick

i'm sick.
i'm so sick.
not only do my teeth and gums hurt, and my stomach [just threw up] and my head is pounding.
but my spirit is sick.

i've lost part of myself this past week.

not trying to be dramatic. but i really don't know who i want to be anymore.
i need two seperate lives. my party life, and my goodie church life.
both would make me happy; just in different ways.

it has been a spring break i will never forget.
some good ways; some bad ways.

tomorrow i'm going to a rocket to the moon concert.
so stoked.
they are playing with runner runner and go radio. it should be a good time.
much needed.

there are very few people who are my true friends right now.
and for that, i am very grateful.

i miss my brother. and i need him badly right now.

this week i'm gonna kick school in the trash.
just you wait and see.
i hope..

xo.


p.s. this photo made me cry.

Hey, this one is for you.

yeah, you bi.



Been having an amazing spring break. Much more amazing-ness to come I hope.
I love my friends.
xoxo Laura

How I Spent My First Day of Spring Break:

...Mixed with some movies and food and friends. I am truly blessed.

Sorry my updates have been so short lately. So much going on. So much happiness. The only thing that would make me more happy: SUNSHINE AND WARMTH.
Winter just keeps trying to make a comeback.
I'm ready for summer. Ready for shorts and lying in the grass.

xox Laur

Regrets.