So Usually..

I hate valentines.

BUT. Wait for iiiit.

I loved today.

It wasn't perfect; but it was juuuust right. :]


i'm for sure going to bed with a smile on my face.
thanks to you bucko.
xoxo.

life is just too good. i don't think about the past, i don't think about the future. i just love the here and now.

i surprise myself.

my life lately has felt matured, mellowed, and content.

this week i am going to see He Is We. i am ESTATIC. beyond that even. favorite band. ah.
also with barcelona and someone else i've never heard of..

uhm. school is getting stupider by the second.

i had a lovely day with mase today. absolutely perfect.
his family is loads of fun.
the sun helped.

college dance auditions were saturday. weber. IMMA sore. it was fun though. i don't think we find out till april.. so i'm just trying not to worry about that.

that's about it for me. i hope you feel sufficiently updated on my life.
it's great. really. it's not super exciting, it's not wild and out of control. it's not rainbows and unicorns.

it's simple, it's real, and it's mine.

ps happy valentines day tomorrow. not a huge fan of the day myself, but i guess it'll be fun for all you sappy people out there.

xox Laura.

I'm Gonna Stand Tall

Yesterday a lot of bad stuff happened. A lot. I'll just leave it at that.

And yet.. I'm still finding things to be happy about.
Life is just THAT good.

I am truly happy; for a lot of reasons too. And I don't think anything will get in my way.

I'm gonna stand tall.

"Happiness is a journey, not a destination."

When was the last time..

i was this happy?

i don't really remember to be honest. :)

i find myself smiling constantly, i feel like i am where i'm supposed to be in my life and i'm doing what i need to be doing, and i'm who i am supposed to be with when i'm supposed to be with them.

it's scary because when i feel this happy, i feel like it's going to be pulled away from me.. i just want to hold on so tight.

but happiness is a choice. and i am choosing to be happy. now.

i am pretty positive i go to sleep with a smile on my face daily. (nightly?)
it's the best feeling in the world.

p.s. i'm learning bmx tricks.. kind of. okay, i still suck, but trying new things is so exhilarating. i love bmx, it's amazing.

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p.s. being happy makes me not focus on words.. i hope this made sense. :]

I know, I know,

it's been a while, and for that, I apologize.
you guys.
brace yourselves.

i am inexplicably happy.

and i don't think this is just a fluke. [i have happy flukes quite often, where i convince myself i'm happy and i end up hating myself.]
pretty positive i am happy.

and i'm not exactly sure why.
i've made new friends that i love.
my testimony has grown.
i've stopped judging people completely; i am so open to people now.
i've let go of grudges and it feels good.

this week i saw a shooting star, as i was driving home; i was talking to my friend about it and she asked "what'd you wish for?"

i thought for a second with a little bit of panic and realized i hadn't even thought of wishing for something. what the crap. ha.

but then i realized.

i didn't wish for anything; i feel like i have everything.

truly. i do.
and it's an amazing feeling; being happy with what you have.

yes; college crap, and work, and school, and nonsense still stresses me out completely; yes, i still have grey days, who doesn't?

but i've made my choice; i'm happy.
and for the first time in a really long time, i feel like i'm where i'm supposed to be at in my life.
LIBERATING, is really the only word i can come up with right now.

this photo here is how i've been living my life lately:
i've decided i am going to try as many new experiences as possible.
i climbed a pavilion roof the other day. that was exciting.
i am also going car surfing soon.





two confessions.
one) i fall hard, and i fall fast. but this time, i'm taking it slow. and i love it. it's new for me to not rush things. it's hard for sure, really hard, but i'm happy where i'm at.

two) i'm dying to get away from home. i can't stand it anymore. thank heavens for this week to come.. i need to move out.. don't get me wrong, i love my family. but..

so that's about it. life is really good. i think about school and i'm like --man, i hate my life-- but in all reality, i don't think at this point in time i am capable of hating my life; because i'm being who i am.
ultra cheeeese.
hope you enjoy my cheesiness as much as i do. (:

xoxo
Laura

oh! FAVORITE SONG

Bet You're Jealous

Okay, maybe not, but this is so unlike me.

I have all my Christmas shopping DONE. Word.

So this week I have been grateful for many things. I have just felt so overwhelmingly blessed. Here are a few grateful spotlights of the week:

Red Lipstick [The dance performance went smoothly. I felt great about it!]
Florence and the Machine and Tegan and Sara. Couldn't have gotten through the week without them!
An amazing father who knows how to put a spare tire on in the freezing cold.
Big O Tires, for fixing my tires for free. Y'all are the bomb.
Tyler Ward and his amazing covers. And he is pretty cute.
A mother who takes my weird eating habits into consideration.
A washer and dryer. All my laundry is done! Now i just need to put it somewhere..
A really soft couch to sleep on while my room is.. an unfortunate sight, to say the least.
[I was going to take pictures so y'all could see what is going down. Buuut. I seem to have misplaced my camera in all the mayhem.]
Snail Mail!

So I have been trying and trying to come up with a reason that I can show you wonderful people this photo, and finally I thought: 'Screw it Lar. It's your blog, post whatever you like.' So I hope you guys enjoy this. Just imagine being there. Go to your quiet place. And as you go there, read this quote! [Ya might have to click and enlarge it for the full effect.]



"For just a while, calm your thoughts. In this moment, simply be.
There is much in your life, and there is much more to come.
Yet you have always been, and you always are, more than enough.

For a moment, let go of the way you appear and the things you’ve done. Feel the truth and power of who you are.
...In silence, there is much you can know. Beyond thought, there is much you can understand.

Touch the person who always lives inside the person you are. Be immersed in the beauty and wonder of being.
Feel the strength that is always there. And know that whatever may come, all is well."
— Ralph Marston.


Isn't that fabulous and wonderfully breathtaking to your soul? Mine too.
Thank you so much for all my followers who read and enjoy.
Hang in there y'all.
xo- Laura.

Stuck

This is a good kinda stuck.
I'm stuck in this really happy place. Where nothing gets to me.
No, not everything is perfect, which is unfortunate.
But.
I am mature and calm about things that frustrate me.
I break rules; I've been wearing black with brown, and yes, gold jewelry with silver jewelry.
I say goodbye, I smile, I know things will be okay.
I don't worry about calories, I focus on my style, I have my Christmas shopping done.
I'm so excited to give to others.
I've been dating. -this song is perfect for this post bee t dub.
I've been blasting much a lot. Happy music, mind you.

[Don't get me wrong, I'm my normal, crazy, immature self. Just a much better version.]

It's like an epiphany. An explosion of perfection. A settling of contentment.

This week I did a lot of shopping. Scratch that, this month I did a lot of shopping. Shopping makes people feel good. At least it makes me feel good.

A beautiful, purple, Nat Kaplan vintage suede jacket.
A vintage gold watch.
Black ankle boots.
Feather Headband.
Chunky knit scarves.
Much more. Too much more?

So what is on everyone's Christmas List?
I couldn't think of much this year. But if I had all the money in the world, I would by myself these babies right here: Jeffrey Campbell Roks Wedge. Mmm baby.

So one of my greatest friend's took this picture below. Unedited. Cool, huh? No, I don't have a pink streak. Thanks for that sun.

It's absolutely how I feel right now. The sun is shining, and life is good. Long Live.


Life is joyful, and I'm downright pleased.

Right now my main challenges are keeping my attention focused in school, getting the dances down for our concert, and deciding on a college [Weber, the U, or SUU. Whichever will pay for me to dance there].
Oh, and I need to prep a solo for my college auditions.. Bleh.
But I'm happy and grateful to be here for the ride. I feel like this contentment is going to stay for a while.
Thank heavens.

Thanks for listening to the rant. Love and happiness to all.

P.S. Purple = links
P.P.S. New music playlist. Yum.